God asked me today, I've given you so much, why is it that you give me so little in return?

God asked me today, I love you this much, how is it that you love me so little in return?

So I told God, I'm not ready yet. Give me more time. Give me more time to live the way I want to live. Give me more time to keep on doing these things that I do. Give me more time, God.

And God asked me, how much more time do you need Sherlene?

And I answered, I don't know.

And God told me I break His heart.

...

...

I keep replaying this. My conversation with God.

I'm stuck at a crossroads and I don't know what to decide. On the one hand, I know the extent of what I can do in God, and I know the fullness of the blessings He has for me and on the other hand, I just can't give this up. I just can't give up what God wants me to give up, and it hurts all the more because I know exactly what's on the other side that I'm giving up instead.

God asks me, how much more time do you need Sherlene? And I reply, I don't know God, I don't know... ... ...